I really lost my temper today in practice, when my aforementioned sempai-turned-kohai continued to be frustarting to practie against. I'd given up on shikake-waza, as he just blocks it, making it difficult for me to do anything at all (not even an upward, tsuba-ward block, but rather a horizontal blcok), except receive half-kikentai attacks, mostly with the kiai coming after. But the point is at one point when he thrust the butt of his tsuka at me, I kind of lost it, launching into about a minute worth of loud kakarigeiko. But I regret it, as it's not as if I scoerd a single point for all those attacks, and if I can pour it on then, then why not all of the time?

No, the tonight was just an off practice, though the kihon and wza portions were strong. I guess I just wasn't pushing myself as forward as I should have, though at the same time I guess against Sensei proper I got in a fe decen thits, but felt a little off-balance, always somehow hopping more than should have, with my left-foot sometimes crossing over. It's hard to describe, but it wasn't satisfying, and I need to continue to work on tenouchi rather than hacking and using too much power. I'm happy to report that my musculature has shifted from my pecs to the my lats and my forearms, though of course at that I'm also still a novice.